Wow, haven't blogged in awhile and not sure if anyone does this anymore.  But I have to share how Myah's doing at the daycare.

In the beginning of the week Myah was still not okay with the sitter.  She would cry when we turn to the sitter's house and literally cry the whole time I get them ready to go to the house and stuff.  It's funny cause while she's crying she's trying to take herself out of her car seat.  Like she knows she has to leave. but don't.  Well, these past 2 days she has been doing better.  On Wednesday she cried a little, just a little whine and the key thing was that when I said Myah you have to go to Cindy now she didn't even hesitate to go and just went to the sitter without holding on to me so tight.  And then Marv told me when he picked her up she wasn't crying and just said hi and continued playing.  Then today she did so much better.  Yeah she whined a little but not cry.  Right when I said bye she just went to the sitter.  So she's starting to understand and realize that she has no choice, but to stay and that Daddy will pick her up.  Oh my god the way she says Daddy pick me up is the CUTEST thing ever.  She can hella talk now it's crazy.  Yeah, so I feel so much better now knowing that she's starting to get comfortable.  Hopefully by next month she'll be comfortable and not cry at all.

This past week has been really hard for me.  Why?  The fact that I have to go back to the real world, work, and leaving Myah and Cierra at a daycare.  I've been crying at home and even choked up at the daycare today when I visited.  The sitter had Cierra who was crying and she wouldn't stop.  I felt so bad, my poor baby.  Myah was fine playing with the kids, but I know for sure on Monday she's going to cry.  I wonder if it's better that she be asleep when I leave or awake.  I think awake because if she's asleep wakes up and I'm not there she'll be even more scared dontcha think?  Waking up to a strange and unfamiliar place or watching your mommy leave you? Hmmm....both hard, huh.  We ate at Jollibee for dinner and Myah was just being so cute so sure enough here I am crying.  Marv's like what's wrong with you and so I told him.  There's nothing we can do, we have no choice.  I have to get over it someday. 

MONDAY IS GONNA BE THE WORST DAY EVER!!! BOOHOOHOO!!!

36 weeks and counting....

I've had this cold and slight cough for awhile now, but today it hit me.  I think I have a sinus cold, but anyway my head hurts, throat hurts, whole body is just aching, I just don't feel good.  To top it all off I'm hella pregnant.  I had a diabetes appointment this morning, which I cancelled last minute because I seriously did not feel good.  These appointments are very important and for me to ditch it cause I didn't feel good obviously means I don't feel good.  So cancelled that, but still decided to go to work knowing that I'd just go home early.  But then I thought why not just stay home.  So I called my manager and here's how the conversation went, quote/unquote:

Me: Hi Lee this is Cherry I can't make it in today because I don't feel good.

Her: Are you kidding me? (Her tone was like are you fucking kidding me)

Me: No I really don't feel good.

Her: Well Des just called in and Rena won't be able to do everything.

Me: Well, I really don't feel good and won't make it.

Her: It's still pretty early why don't you do a late shift?

Me: I am on the late shift and can't make it through the day I really don't feel good.

Silence

Me: I'll just call you back later.

Her: Can you call back around 1pm?

Me: Okay, bye.

I start to cry. No for real I just started to cry.  I did cause I felt hella sick and couldn't believe that the first thing she said was are you kidding me.  Why the heck would I be kidding?  I was very very upset and still am.  She is hella like that with me and honestly I was planning to go to work around 3 or 4 to purposely pass out just to get her ass in trouble, but Dee's right that just shows her she can boss me around.  But you know what, she can't this time.  I'm really sick and am not going to play Miss Nice Girl.  Everytime I call in sick she always asks for a doctor's note even on the 1st day and I give it to her cause I have nothing to hide.  When she asks me to switch up my schedule I do.  Like on Tuesday I scheduled a spur of the moment doctor's appointment at 2pm and asked to get off at 1pm, but because we had this big meeting with the big boss she asked if I can switch it to 4, which I couldn't, but instead worked from 3pm - 9pm just so I can make it.  So if I had worked today I would've worked 3 nights.  Ughh!!!  Can managers do that?  Can they basically say no you can't call in sick cause there's no coverage?  It's not thier buisness, right? 

*********************** IT'S ANOTHER GIRL !!!! **********************

Marv and Tytal were not too happy with the news just cause they both wanted a boy.  As for me I was kinda upset too.  Just cause I know how much it means to Marv to have a son, but what can we do.  We have to be blessed with what God gave us.  Yeah, but Marv is totally blaming my eggs.  I'm like yeah right it's your guy swimmers they're not strong enough.  Either that or my eggs are like hell nah no guy is gonna go up in here. hehehe.  I'm really excited though.  She is too cute.  Yeah you're probably wondering how the heck did I see her face and all, but I could just tell.  She had really big cheeks and looks like Myah more except her nose I think.  She's hecka kulit too.  She was raising her leg like she was trying to push herself out.  It was too cute.  So I guess we really just got to keep Myah's newborn clothes to the side.  Maybe I can get a PINK Coach baby bag (hint, hint).  My due date now is September 1st, originally the 4th only a 3 day difference.  So technically I can have my baby on the week of August 14th or maybe a few days earlier.  So ya'll Hawaii people might miss it.  That's okay you swear like ya'll weren't there with Tytal and Myah.  Oh, the doctor couldn't find my fibroid.  He said that when my obgyn checked it could've been my uterus contracting (I doubt it) that's why he couldn't see it.  I honestly think it was a miracle. 

What's next...trying to figure out a name. 

My day was just so bad.  You know it was just one of them days.  Not PMS, but just bad.  I was late to work cause there was a BART delay. I guess I've been hella stressed out at work cause there's a rumor going around that between the 3 specialists (me and two other girls) one of us is gonna get booted down to a lower position.  I know it's me cause of 2 things I'm pregnant and will be going on leave pretty soon and I'm just not all that great.  I was doing really well in my position last year, but this year hasn't been too good.  I mean I meet the standards, but it's not as awesome and doesn't exceed.  I think it also has to do with the customers that we are funding.  I swear every month they just get worse and worse.  To top it all off my supervisor isn't all that great.  She's miss know it all and she so doesn't.  She's rude and sarcastic at times.  Not only that she is trying to sabotage me and the 2 other specialists.  She's trying to find a way to write us up or something. 

Maybe it's cause I'm pregnant and my pregnancy hormones is not working with me this time.  Maybe I am having a boy.  I guess I'm stressed out too cause our company got bought out by Wachovia and they've already sent a memo about "Position Placements" and talked about how if there is more people than positions to refer to their severance plan.  Also, our policy changes to theirs as of July 1st.  That could be the day I get laid off.  I guess it's no biggy cause I'll probably be on maternity leave the following month anyway.  I dunno.  I just need to start focusing. 

All I know is I'm taking advantage of my maternity leave and take more time off than I did with Myah.  I probably went to work too early.  I really hope this is a boy because this will be the last Gallardo baby, for real!!!